A month in

There's a point in every person's life when they are faced with a huge hurdle. It can be a daunting task to get through it and move on from it. I'm currently moving through one that I originally thought would be harder.

Making the decision to remove a close friend from your life is never easy. After six years of frienship I had to remove one of the friends I let in the most. I was sure when I made the decision it would destroy me completely. Instead I have found I'm not as upset by the loss as I expected. There are days it hits me hard, like today. But I don't get saddened by it. I get a rush of rage.

I have identified why I get so angry about it all and it's two fold. After six years of daily communication it angers me they don't seem to care that I cut off communication. Added to it the fact that leading into my decision was their decision to continuously lie to me. It all makes me angry at them all over again every time I either see them or see a post/tweet from them.

In the end it combines to show I wasn't as important in their life as they led me to believe. I am better off without them in my life. I'm slowly removing them from my online life. It will take time. As much as I would like them to be happy, I will admit I will not be surprised when they end up miserable as it's bound to happen.

I have surrounded myself with better friends. Friends who understand the relationship goes both ways and it takes active involvement from both of us. I am moving pass this one person. It will take many more months to fully mive on but I think one is a good place to start.